Prayer Request

Wow it's been a long time since I've updated. I haven't forgotten you guys, I promise. :-)

Life has been pretty hectic for my husband and myself over the past month or so. Let me give you a little update about our lives before I hit into the real reason for my post today.

Around the beginning of August, I started having really bad pains in the lower left part of my stomach. My doctor blew it off as an inflamed colon and said it would take care of itself and I didn't need to worry about it. However, when the pain didn't go away, he sent me in for an ultrasound to see if there was something else there that might be causing the pain. We found out from the ultrasound that I did indeed have a cyst on my ovary which is what my doctor was thinking, but it was on the right side of my body, and not the left where my pain was. So that left us thinking it's either a kidney stone or a UTI. He put me on an antibiotic to clear up any kind of infection I might have and I started drinking lots of juice in case it was a kidney stone.

Meanwhile, since I have a cyst on my ovary, he recommended I let my gynecologist know and he told me that the hospital recommended I go back for another ultrasound in six weeks to make sure the cyst went away. I did a little reading about cysts and discovered that they do typically go away on their own, but if they get to be in the neighborhood of 5 cm or so, they usually do surgery to remove them. I found out from my gyno that my cyst is 2.9 cm long but she's not that concerned about it. I'm actually going to have another ultrasound in a couple of weeks to make sure it goes away and she switched the meds that I'm taking to see if that helps keep cysts out of my body.

And in case you're wondering, the pain has indeed gone away, so we're thinking whatever I had was an infection of some kind. So yay for no more pain. :-)

Then last week, my husband and I went on vacation with my parents to the beach. We had a great time. A little bit of an emotional rollar coaster because of a few things, but overall, we were able to relax and I really enjoyed spending time with my mom and dad.

However, nothing is ever perfect and the day before we were supposed to leave, my husband wakes up sick at his stomach and discovered he has a kidney stone. Yippee! Thankfully, he was only really sick on Saturday, and was feeling well enough to be able to ride in the car on Sunday for our drive home. He's had a rough couple of days at work, but he's feeling a lot better now and is pretty sure he's passed the stone. So good news there. :-)

As far as the guild goes...well, what can I say. I really don't want to go into details, as I've put the anger and the hurt behind me for the most part, so I'll just say we've had a few people leave while I was on vacation and I'm at the point where I'm having to restructure how things are going to be handled. I've already started working on a game plan for the guild and what I want from it. This next week is definitely going to be testing the waters to see how the guildies I have react and the desires they have and committments they're willing to make. I have a lot of work ahead of me, but I'm hopeful and I know we can bounce back from this.

Now, onto the real reason for my post. I'm going to turn things a little more personal here and ask that those of you who share my faith, pray for me. I mentioned several posts ago that I have a desire on my heart and here, several months later, the desire is still very strong. Strong to the point where I'm actually reading, researching, and finding out more information about this desire. However, my husband still needs some convincing. I've been praying for several weeks now that God would either take the desire from me if it's not His will for my life OR change my husband's heart for it.

I was listening to a podcast this morning about this desire that I have, and something they said made me realize, I'm expecting so much of my husband. I expect him to fully embrace this and jump into it with me, but he's shared a desire of his with me and I'm totally against the idea. God and I are going to talk a little more about that one as I'm still very much against the idea, but I realize now I need to be more open and accepting of my husband's dreams and desires if I expect him to be open to mine. Two way street Tab, two way street.

In any case, please keep us in your prayers for my unspoken prayer request and that a decision can be made one way or another before I go crazy. :-)

And...one last thing I want to talk about before I end my book. hehe Check out this awesome video I found today. I hope it touches your heart as much as it touched mine.