I better do this now...

After being bugged by a couple people over the weekend that I haven't updated, I figure I better do this now before I get too busy to do it later. :-)

What has Aht been into lately? Well not too much. I've mainly been logging on to do my daily cooking and chat it up with everyone. I've been trying to help gear Jule's druid when I can and get some of our other guildies into heroics to help them gear up for the raids. I have a ton of people hitting 80 and working them into the guild runs is going to be great fun.

I said last week we were really close to having three ten man runs, well I told Kroff this morning we were just one shy of being ready to go. And I'm a noob and completely forgot about one of the CM people that just hti 80 with both of his toons over the weekend...we're set.

It'll still be at least a week before we start that raid up. I need to discuss time and committment with everyone that's to be involved and make sure I do have ten committed people to take with us. We've also been talking about who to get to lead it and Kroff said this morning that I probably should. I brought up a couple other people that I would trust to lead a raid, but he thinks me doing it would be a better idea since so many people want to run with me. /rolls eyes I dunno about all that now, but I'm flattered that he still trusts me enough to lead raids.

I lead a raid in BC, but I was new to leading and we definitely had our downfalls along the way. I struggled to get people there and on time and ready to go. I had a hard time fussing at people when they slacked off and settling disputes. I hate dealing with the dirty work. I mean, I don't think anyone especially likes it, but I have a really hard time because I want to be the "nice one". I've always had this thing about me where people tend to run to me and confide in me. I dunno if it's an aura I give off or what, but I've always been very proud of the fact that people feel they can trust me and do trust me. It's something that I don't take for granted and try very hard to maintain my trustworthiness. I like it. So that makes me not want to step up when the occasion calls for it. Definitely a flaw I've been working on. So for Kroff to tell me he thinks I should lead the raid, it means a lot. It means he's seen some change in me. And I'm happy for that.

That being said, we'll definitely have to talk about it some more, but I'll probably be seperating off from my hubby in a couple weeks and taking my own team into Naxx 10 to get ready for Uldar. Oh boy.

It won't be that bad, if I end up leading, I'll have a good crew. A little heavy on the melee, but we definitely have a team for success. And I'm excited. Not about leading, but about getting some people who are fairly new to raiding in there and pounding face. I'm excited we're giving people the opportunity to do something they've never done before. It makes me happy that my guild is so open for those kinds of people. Yea dps may suck at first, but I tell ya, I have yet to see someone who isn't willing to listen and to learn and take advice. I like those people. And honestly, I'd rather have sucky dps or struggling healing or can't hold aggro tanking and them show up prepared and ready to learn and listen than someone who rocks and is stubborn as a mule. Give me the needs to work on my crap person any day of the week.

And just for the record, I by no means think that I'm one of those awesome people. I know there are things I don't know about my class. I know there are things I still need to work on and I know that I will always find someone who plays a Druid tank better than me. But I'm cool with that. I feel I play my toon to the best of my abilities and I'm satisfied with that. And that's all I ask of anyone else. Just play to the best of your ability if you're going to raid, and I'm happy with that. I'll take you to the training dummy and help you, I'll shoot you some sites to help you find gear, I'll take you dungeon romping to get that gear, and I'll even coach you if you need that. But if you're doing your best, then bravo for you. You are a true team player and I salute you. Thank you for being you.